chain me down the darkest dungeon
give to me stale bread and water
guard me with a hefty dragon
yet my thoughts will soar
far beyond the chains
and something in me will tell a story.
give me aching pain and sorrow
give me torment steeped in trouble
give me dryness stilled in darkness
yet my mind will spin
a world of brilliance
and know that world will tell a story.
For a while now, I have thought that the things that are external to me are tiny compared to the potency within. Even when I have failed and fallen flat on my face, I knew deep down that I did not fail because of the intensity of the battle without but because on the day of battle, I was internally unfortified. When I had to battle a terminal disease (terminal diseases do not know their age mates, I know), I knew that the disease could not defeat me if I did not allow myself to be defeated internally.
As an entrepreneur even when my enterprise reflects my operating environment, I know that the state of the economy or my industry does not determine the state of my enterprise, if I refuse to allow it internally. I know deep down that my personal economic conditions are determined from within and really have nothing to do with the local or global economic cycle. I have fallen to temptation before but even then, I knew I did not fall because I was tempted, I fell because I was unfortified internally.
There is a giant in me. I know it like I know my name is Tolulope. There is an invincible one in me, who can make a way in the wilderness and create rivers of water in the desert, who can make things happen against all odds. Who is this giant? He is my recreated spirit, my real self, a child of God, who came into being when I received Jesus Christ into my life.
Like God who fathered him, this giant within is invisible and invincible. The giant within is also referred to as “the hidden man of the heart.” Believe it or not, if you have also become God’s child, there is a giant in you. This giant is a love child of the Almighty God, the Creator of the universe. That needs to sink.
Like his father who created this tangible earth and the surrounding universe from those things we dismiss as non-existent, this giant within has the native ability to bring new things into existence. Like his father, this giant within can create a “world of brilliance” from “aching pain and sorrow,” “torment steeped in trouble,” “dryness stilled in darkness.”
Being a child of the Creator of the universe and having the Creator’s native ability to create, this giant within can create, with or without formal education or “experience”. After all, his Father, God the Creator, has no formal education and look what He did! The giant within is the reason Joseph graduated from prison having spent his educational years in slavery and prison and went on to run the empire of his days. The giant within is the reason David, schooled in Sheep Herding and Protection, lacking the required combat experience and equipment, brought down Goliath. There are many more examples in contemporary times, of the giant within in action.
There is a giant within, who, like God his father, can handle whatever he confronts on the outside. He is invisible and in a world where all attention is focused on the external, we are easily deceived into ignoring or dismissing “the hidden man of the heart,” who is the real person. Little wonder many of us live and die without having lived. The hidden man of the heart is not to be ignored as we are admonished in scriptures, “Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard, for out of it flow the springs of life.”
The giant within originated from God and therefore has no potency or equipment problem when it comes to challenges of life or engaging forces of wickedness. The giant within is so potent that he cannot be defeated except by himself. From the beginning of time, every defeat of God’s children has been caused by themselves, not the enemy. There is a giant within, who is more potent than the enemy without. Because of the giant within, God expects us to be victorious and that is why heaven is for winners and hell is for losers.
If the enemy was so powerful, why did he have to make suggestions to Adam and Eve? Why could he not come against them unawares and just defeat them? He needed them, he needed the giants in them. Why did Samson have to be tempted by Delilah, in order to be defeated? Like Adam and Eve, his downfall had to come from him, the participation of the giant in him was necessary for his downfall.
I am at a point where I need to activate the giant in me. Activating the giant within, I believe, starts with knowing that there is indeed a giant within. Are you a child of God? You may know there is a giant in you but do you know there is a giant in you?